should i or should not?

suddenly blur again..

blur about the direction that i should heading too..

no wonder my sifu told me before that at his ages like me ..in his 25 till 27 , he still very blur about his future. now finally i understand already. lots of things appear in our mind . we want to do this , want to do that. lots of dreams and goals to achieve.. which one should come first? which one lead me to a BETTER me...? WONDERING?!?!?!?!

today there is one group of international school students came to the gym to learn more about doing exercise in the gym involving muscle workout.

its should be handle by my juniors but end up a fire from my inner heart shoot up and i also get involved in educated the students that came.

the learning process was totally different once i take over a few students. i just be myself, act as a educator to make fitness education something fun to learn .. the gals enjoying themselves with me and so do i enjoying myself teaching them. their laughter, thier complaining about the pain they have at the muscles, thier concentration , thier responses make me feel so confidence with the ways i can educate people.. remain me back the moment i was a secondary school with all my cute students. i guess lots of them now already in the college or uni level already. haha. mean i am old already too.. funny !!!

the feeling start to become stronger and stronger.. there really a talent in me .. I AM A EDUCATOR. ..especially related to fitness and health..

wondering should i actually give some try to go back to physical education to be a physical education teacher to teach at international school?

i give up goverment PE teacher job before when i was giving the chance to be the 1st one from my class to get interview for posting to school.. but end up now after i year plus i am the only one who didn`t become a PE teacher. never regret for the choices i made.. and will never back to become a goverment physical education teacher..

however, maybe will give a try to be a international school PE teacher if i am given a chance and in the mean time i can be a ACE certified trainer to train people living a better and healthier lifes..

friends and buddy out there ... what do u think ? any suggestion??

thanks GOD for always showing me different paths so that i have more choices and train myself to be able to be a good decision maker for my own lifes. !! however... never never U turn ..!!

the feeling now is wierd... up and down.. missing something..!?!?!

Today kinda relax a bit. do massage + facial pamper myself for working so hard.

finally, application for China Visa have been done. finally they willing to accept my application after i managed to submit the forms or proof that they want. can`t wait to get the visa after 4 days later. YIPPIE BEIJING HERE I COME.......the centre was crowded with people... i guess everyone want to go to china especially olympics just finish. :)

later on in the noon, i received sms from my dear senior M. He told me he also quit the job already and the surprise thing is another of my junior Shu actually resign yesterday and only will stay till this sat.

the feeling very wierd after that, start to flash back a lots of memories with the team especially SHu.. never thought he will be the 1st one to leave cause i am the first one to pass up resignation letter. just only think about memories with Shu already can made me cry now, and i can`t imagine what is going to happen to me on my last day in the club which is 30 Sept... tears in the eyes ..but control... need to be strong.

lifes have to move on.. i love the family so much.. no doubt about the friendship we have among all the summit staff. everyone was so real and be trustful plus playing their roles well. welldone to all OF U..

NOW IN THE LAST 4 DAYS when Shu is still in the club , i want to snap more photos with him and also spent more time with him before he BYEBYE to us on sat. hope not crying scheme on Sat...PRAY..god pls..hide my tears...

pity my boss , Key.. he will be in big trouble again..to get more sales and conducted hours.

sorry Kee we can`t help u much. we just need to move on to have a better future.

A new lifes begin on Sept 11 - 2007..

well, after a long time, i have been stop writing anything on the blog..this will be a great start of my new lifes.

is Sunday, enjoying myself have breakfast with my dear parent. another 17 days to go before i start my backpack journey to beijing China for 11 days. can`t wait for that day to come. rushing to finish up all my lovely clients sessions before i quit my job at the end of September.

lots of stuffs that i need to settle before i go Beijing. having problem to get the China visa cause they want me to show more proof that i am going there to support paralympics games. well, i believed everything will go well and the journey will be fun and adventure too. catch up with me more start from 11 Sept where i will update my daily backpack lifes there.

CAN`T WAIT FOR THE DAY TO COME ...YIPPIE...

China Goalball team ...here i come to support u guys to be the world champion.. u guys will be the champion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!